FFF

I put my friends before,
I put my family before,
I put my future before,
I put everything out there,
I put my own life out,

I struggle to make decisions,
I struggle to find mistakes,
I struggle to understand,
I struggle to feel free,

I fear change,
I fear my own self,
I fear my family,
I fear failure,

I live for friends,
I live for family,
I live for future,
I live for my own life,
I take it all seriously,

I stop but…

I can’t stop,
I can’t breathe when things are bad,
I can’t be free when things are feared,
I can’t concentrate life is hard,
I can’t think when things are painful,
I can’t fear my own life…worrying about my family and friends

I struggle to find truth,
I struggle to find reality,
I struggle to find love,
I struggle to find the ones that really matter,
I struggle period….

Life is hard… people are cruel… family is tough… friends are confusing…
Together they make me happy… the hardest things in life are what my whole life is about